sad sad week

Irda Rina K is someone I got to know thru Facebook. A young mother of one.  A boy, a toddler, barely 2 yrs old, ill with cancer, Neuroblastoma. It seems that this is third highest ranking cancer among children.

:(

Little Akif lost his fight yesterday afternoon. I only found out about it last night. And worst, I was actually thinking of visiting, even when I've never even met Irda before. It was not meant to be. I felt so profoundly sad. I somehow could feel the loss myself as I'd been following his progress and at one time he seems to be getting better. Then the cancer came back. I am just not able to comprehend what the parents must be going thru. He died in his mummy's arms, as she hugs him close. Alhamdullilah and innalillah, at the same time, ironic isn't it?! My sister died in her daughter's arms, just the way she wants it, I believe.  Jazidah, our very close family friend, who lost her fight to breast cancer, died surrounded by her loved one (all her 5 children and her husband), the way everyone would want it.

I couldn't sleep last night, I think I even dreamt of Akif with his mum last night! That's how much I was affected by his death.  And to think that since the day my sister died last week - not once had I dreamt about her. I think and I hope, she is happy to be where she is now. No more pain, no more suffering and no worldly (if there's such a word?) worries... She and Akif, in a good place, a better place, I'm sure.

doa' for my mak & abah, my kak na & kak not (jaz, akif and many others)

we'll meet again one day, insya'allah.

Updates

We had a great time meeting up with a few of us BFFs... at Ina's daughter's wedding.  Jema actually took the trouble to wait for us.  She came with her Ba, all the way from Temerloh and goes back after the kenduri. Its always fun to meet up with old friends, and all of us would be 19 again.  Too bad we were not able to continue at Syim's place, which disappointed Syim cause she was looking forward to it, we all did too but just too bad ! 

My youngest, Aina went off to Miri/Mulu for a camping/climbing trip this time.  Coming back tonite, I'm sure she had a good time there. Mulu is always fantastic. Aina worked for a month or so, at Secret Recipe so that she gets to go for this trip, her pay from that job, paid for the orginal cost of the trip. Mum & Dad gave her some pocket money and also added the extra which she had to pay, cause they couldn't get a sponsor or a sponsor backed out last minute of something like that. Its good when a club has active ppl to run their programs....

One of our very very close family friend is very sick, the big C.  We didn't even know she had it like some 6 years ago, they kept it quite. Now she had a relapse, 2nd relapse in fact. But this time, it has spread to her liver and bones.  Its so sad to see her.  Her mum, our fav aunty, just passed away last year.  We think, she had the relapse bcause she was so sad & depressed by her mum's passing.  But looking at her daughters who were at the hospital when we visited, I felt so sad. She's going to miss a lot.  And them too, am thinking of them, without their mum later on their big day, when they marries, when they have children....

Life seems so unfair sometimes.......